[7/21/14 9:28:22 AM] Earl Grey: "Water. Can I have water to drink?" I asked. The paramedics looked at each other and the big guy did the talking. "What you need is to go to the hospital so we can give you medicine and figure out what is wrong with you. We don't know what is wrong with you so if you try to drink anything, you'll throw up." June was quick on the uptake. "I have some water." She handed me her jug. The paramedic almost tried to reach out for my water, but I stopped him with a glare. He knew. We both knew that he had no right to touch our personal property. He's not a policeman. He doesn't have a search warrant.
[7/21/14 9:32:44 AM] Earl Grey: I took her jug of water and I took a little, enough to fill up half of my mouth, swishing it around like a mouth wash. The paramedic tried to contain his annoyance, but he picked a poor opponent to try to hide his emotions from. "If you try to drink that water, you'll throw up for sure!" I swallowed the water in my mouth and grinned. "I wanted to clear my palette so that you wouldn't have to smell my nasty breath." His eyes widened for a split second, but I read it. Yes… the seeds of doubt sowed in his mind. He had a shadow of a doubt: what if I can't convince this girl to go to the hospital?
[7/21/14 9:34:59 AM] Earl Grey: "Well uh… I just had indian curry earlier today so uh, I'm sure my breath smells worse." It was too easy. An experienced paramedic in his own right, but someone who has been sitting on his throne for too long. No wonder he was the one doing the talking and not the others. He takes pride in what he does, there was probably a time he used to be an honest man, but now that there are hard times in the economy, you can't make an omelette without cracking a few eggs.
[7/21/14 9:35:33 AM] Earl Grey: A little too much pride. A type of pride that I know all to well like the back of my own hand.
[7/21/14 9:36:13 AM] Earl Grey: "So I'm going to need to get your information that way I can decide whether I get to keep you as my prisoner or not."
[7/21/14 9:36:26 AM] Earl Grey: You tell me: is this the way a paramedic is supposed to speak?
[7/21/14 9:39:04 AM] Earl Grey: its not a rhetorical question, but I'll continue while I wait for your response.
[7/21/14 9:40:19 AM] Earl Grey: heheheheh
[7/21/14 9:40:35 AM] Earl Grey: you should be satisfied in where this direction goes
[7/21/14 9:41:56 AM] Earl Grey: I was taken aback by his statement. "What do you mean?" I asked. He starts getting cocky. "Well I just need to make sure you aren't 17."
[7/21/14 9:42:44 AM] Earl Grey: YOU… YOU FUCKING STRAP ME TO A GODDAMN STRETCHER AND TRY TO PLAY MIND GAMES WITH ME AND YOU… YOU FUCKING… I FUCKING JOKED ABOUT THIS EARLIER. I FUCKING KNEW IT. I FUCKING KNEW IT GODDAMN IT I LOOK LIKE JAIL BAIT!!!
[7/21/14 9:45:16 AM] Earl Grey: Fuck you, fuck your shitty hospital, fuck your shitty ambulance, fuck you fuck you fuck you FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU I AM NOT 17 YOU PIECE OF SHIT HOW DARE YOU! IF YOU HAD ANY IDEA WHO I AM YOU WOULD TAKE THOSE WORDS AND SHOVE IT SO FAR WHERE THE SUN DOESN'T SHINE THAT YOU WOULD HAVE TO BE THE ONE GOING TO THE HOSPITAL TO GET IT SURGICALLY REMOVED AND YOU FUCKING SAY THAT I LOOK LIKE I'M 17 YEARS OLD IF I WASN'T STRAPPED TO THIS GODDAMN CHAIR I WOULD SMACK THE SHIT OUT OF YOU SO HARD SCIENCE WOULDN'T EVEN BE ABLE TO EXPLAIN HOW YOUR STUPID HEAD GOT FUCKED SIDEWAYS!!!
[7/21/14 9:46:25 AM] Earl Grey: That is when I knew I wasn't going to let this asshole take me to the hospital. Oh! I considered it! As much as I hate hospitals, I was no stranger to them and I wanted to do it for June! But oh no, that is where he crossed the line.
[7/21/14 9:48:19 AM] Earl Grey: June shared part of my reaction. "Uh… sir, she's actually 22." I was so done. "Yeah June can you get my wallet-" The paramedic waved his hand. "No no I don't need to see it I believe you." I wasn't taking any chances. "Are you sure?" He said yes.
[7/21/14 9:50:41 AM] Earl Grey: "You know I used to drink all the time." Back to the mind games are we? Trying to play to my emotions to make me reveal things about myself? Okay big guy I'll play your little game. "Oh wow! That's incredible!" I said with faked interest. "My old man is a physician, he thinks because he's a hot shot he can drag his big balls all over the place." I declared with a wicked grin. "I'm the daughter of a doctor so I know a few things… but nothing compared to your expertise!"
[7/21/14 9:51:55 AM] Earl Grey: His cockiness died down to a glare. He shook his head and followed it with a "No." Oh! Ohhh! Did I strike a nerve little paramedic? Let me continue!
[7/21/14 9:55:07 AM] Earl Grey: "A graduate from Stanford and San Diego's medical school. An anesthesiologist." June asked a good question. "Wait! That doesn't mean he's a physician does it-" This asshole interrupted my friend, furthering my motivation to get out of this situation. "Yes, yes it does." I was still smiling, but I made sure not to let it spread to a grin or else I would provoke this poor paramedic a little too much.
[7/21/14 9:59:26 AM] Earl Grey: "Both of my parents think they can do whatever they want. My dad gave me omeprazole in order to help me eat more. I wasn't eating properly because of the stress going on in my family." Since he is a paramedic, he's is required to be mindful of my struggles since it could affect the state of my health after all, right? "That's horrible…" He said with feigned concerned. I could tell because he quelled his annoyance to a painstakingly neutral tone.
[7/21/14 10:01:11 AM] Earl Grey: "Could I have the water again, June? I think I have proved I can drink water without throwing up." She hands me the water and I look at him while I drink the water. He was getting provoked again, playing into my hands. "Alright but if you throw up we can still take you to the hospital." Yeah yeah keep dreaming tough guy.
[7/21/14 10:06:37 AM] Earl Grey: He takes this moment to quickly exchange a few words with the other paramedics. "What…? A physician gave her omeprazole in order to make her eat more…? Who does that!?" These idiots think I don't have ears. "Is that bad?" The paramedic turned his attention back to me. "No its a very common drug, I take it too." I added on to his commentary. "I'm taking omeprazole because advil damaged my stomach when I took it without eating. Sometimes I would take it with the omeprazole." We temporarily reached a civil discussion. Not that it wasn't, but the tension died down for a little between us. "Yes, I take omeprazole with advil too." Hey hey I'm the one strapped to a stretcher here not you I know you still wanna get friendly with me but lets talk about my needs first, right?
[7/21/14 10:09:24 AM] Earl Grey: "You see. I threw up because I'm depressed about what is going on between my parents. Everyone knows that depression does things to the body that can't always be explained." I locked eyes with all the paramedics in the ambulance. They were speechless for a moment. They were trapped. They knew that they couldn't deny it unless they were to let their pride trump their professional opinion. None of them in their right mind would.
[7/21/14 10:13:16 AM] Earl Grey: "So who called 911?" They were starting to realize that trying to keep me here was a mistake. "June." I thought it was, but that is when she corrected me. "Actually no it was the restaurant." They started looking for a new culprit. "So have you had problems with this restaurant before?" We said no. Tough guy wanted to get a little dirty. "So we were told that you were yelling 'Oh god, oh god, this happens every time I am here.'" I blinked. I sort of remember screaming, but not all of it because I lost consciousness. I looked at June but the memory was coming back to me. Yes… I did say that.
[7/21/14 10:15:16 AM] Earl Grey: I tried to think, trying to figure out why I said that. Why did I say that? This has never happened to me before in this restaurant. What did I mean? I looked at June for an answer but she didn't know anymore than I did.
[7/21/14 10:22:02 AM] Earl Grey: "You know usually people start seeing unicorns and all sorts of magic when they… they…" He was trying to comb his thoughts to get his point across but I already knew what he was getting at. "I don't do drugs." I got that out of the way. "Do you smoke weed?" I answered immediately. "No." That is where I crossed the line with June. "Oh come on." I looked at her. I didn't mean to look at her so sternly, but it was the only way. "Sir, I'm a medical marijuana patient." June was within her rights and had every right to do what is necessary to protect herself, but I couldn't afford to let them know or I risk losing my sister. I would do everything in my power to ensure my future if it means I could for her.
[7/21/14 10:26:19 AM] Earl Grey: On cue, the paramedic interrupted her again. "Yeah yeah we don't need to have your information." This asshole was wearing on my goddamn nerves. We exchanged a few more sentences with each other until the other paramedic spoke up. The one at the beginning who was the good cop to his bad cop, the one who showed proper concern for my health and spoke honestly when he said "we just want to make sure you're feeling better."
[7/21/14 10:54:49 AM] Earl Grey: "Okay so all we need to do is to get your name and address so that you can sign a waiver that way you don't get billed for a hospital visit." Now he was speaking my language. Tough guy pulled out his laptop and tapped on his screen. "Yeah so… here's my little lawyer right here." He looked at me to see how I would react. I gave a nod of approval. "Hm. Alright." I gave them my name and address. They were going to ask for my email but they didn't need it. "Alright, well if you ever need us, give us a call." That was the last thing he said until we parted ways.
[7/21/14 10:55:21 AM] Earl Grey: I succeeded in talking my way out of a bunch of paramedics from giving me a visit to the hospital.
[7/21/14 11:05:14 AM] Earl Grey: June started crying while we were walking in the opposite direction in where we were supposed to be going because we both just needed to walk. I apologized like hell. I told her that I ruined our little reunion and that I was going to make up for this. She didn't care about any of that, she just wanted to make sure I was okay. That is why she didn't agree with what I did. She thought I should have gone to the hospital for my health… and she is right. I tried to tell her that I couldn't afford to go to the hospital or I would risk losing my sister. I don't think she really understood completely because I was exhausted. I couldn't really explain myself very well. I am sure once she reads this journal she will understand where I am coming from better, but she has every right to disagree with what I did. I owe JuneRoseXX
my life. If she didn't do CPR and help me regain consciousness, I would have been shipped off to the hospital.
[7/21/14 11:06:14 AM] Earl Grey: She made sure that I got to my train station and that I got food. I paid for my train ticket this time and I gave her whatever money I had left for her to buy herself food. I told her it was my small way of starting to make things up to her.
[7/21/14 11:07:33 AM] Earl Grey: Oh before I forget, what actually happened after we got out of the ambulance was that she reminded me that my phone had been going off the entire time while we were there. Of course, I couldn't answer my phone because I was literally strapped to a stretcher.
[7/21/14 11:09:57 AM] Earl Grey: I called him the first time to let him know I was getting on the train earlier than the bullet train I planned to take to go back home. He sounded disgruntled and hung up without saying good bye. He does that when he wants to show he's pissed. Ohhh scary my dad is hanging up on me without saying good bye better look for the good side of his ass to lick. The only reason why I was worried in the first place is because I thought that asshole paramedic was going to give my parents a phone call, but I like to think he has bigger fish to fry than a 20 something shit stain like me.
[7/21/14 11:12:23 AM] Earl Grey: He called me a 2nd time wondering where I was. I told him I was still on the train. Hung up. The third time I was finally arriving. He hung up. For once, his shitty little tactic on trying to build up suspense to make me feel like I am in trouble was working because the worst case scenario is for the paramedics to tell my parents what happened. I got in the car. He looked back at me with his shitty frown and said "Now look Sarah! When I call… you answer okay? I called you a lot of times and you didn't answer! You know what is going to make me retire earlier? When you make me worried!"
[7/21/14 11:12:40 AM] Earl Grey: I was… so done.
[7/21/14 11:13:11 AM] Earl Grey: This is what he got me all riled up about? Seriously?
[7/21/14 11:13:40 AM] Earl Grey: At first I was going to get angry but I was just too tired for this bullshit. As we drove back home, I felt a strange fucked up sense of relief.
[7/21/14 11:14:16 AM] Earl Grey: I was actually happy that my dad was more concerned about himself. I would rather have him get caught up in his own selfishness than to know what had happened.
[7/21/14 11:19:47 AM] Earl Grey: On a light hearted note, when me and June were waiting for our pho to get ready they brought us our cups and a tea pot. I was still stoned at the time but then I discovered that my friend June has an amazing talent to pour tea.
[7/21/14 11:20:52 AM] Earl Grey: She gently places her fingers on top of the pot to keep it closed and seamlessly poured the tea into the small cups without a fucking drop. I don't think I ever had a platonic boner so hard in my entire life.
[7/21/14 11:21:58 AM] Earl Grey: "Nothing is sexier than a woman who knows how to pour some tea…" I said breathlessly in utter disbelief that fucking June had this rare fucking talent. I never even thought I would even LIVE to see someone be able to this!
[7/21/14 11:22:38 AM] Earl Grey: She smiled because thank god our friendship is so strong that I can admit to such shameful feelings.
[7/21/14 11:22:59 AM] Earl Grey: Its going to go in the nuz420 comic.
[7/21/14 11:31:53 AM] Earl Grey: My mom just gave me my great grandfather's prayer beads "seppah" I think that is how you would pronounce it in English.
[7/21/14 11:32:25 AM] Earl Grey: She told me that they have helped her succeed and ward off danger. She gave them to me and told me that it doesn't matter if I lose them. I told her that I would cherish them.
[7/21/14 11:33:30 AM] Earl Grey: Its very old. It dates back to the turn of the 20th century.
[7/21/14 11:34:08 AM] Earl Grey: Its held together by a fragile green string lined with beads aged by the test of time.